The Sunshine Blogger Awards! 

Hey guys! 

So, I’ve been nominated for ‘The Sunshine Blogger Awards!’. I’m so excited to be in on all of this! 

I’d like to thank @simplylife77 or ‘Anna’ for nominating me for the award. I very much appreciate it all, and absolutely am thrilled with the news. 

I wasn’t too sure about where to put the questions and answers so I’ll be putting the questions in the post. 

I’m not going to be nominating anyone since I haven’t known that many people on here, so sorry beans! 

But here we go! 

 1. What’s your current obsession(s)?
A: Probably YouTube, Blink-182 and comfy hooodies.

 2. What’s something you really regret from your past? 

A: Being an absolute b**** to my mum, and not standing up for myself.

 3. If you were any food, what food would you be? (idk anymore. that was extrememly random😂😂😂)

A: Probably a mango, not sure why.

 4. If you could choose your age forever, what age would you choose and why?

A: I feel like 16 or 20 would be the best ages.

 5. Would you rather travel a century into the future or a century into the past? Why?

A: Probably into the future, too see how society has destroyed the world, and then I can see what not to do in time.

 6. What’s your favorite flavor of icecream?

A: Ben and Jerry’s cookie dough! ^-^

 7. What’s one of your biggest pet peeves?

A: People trying to squeeze their way into my friend group.

 8. If you changed your name, what would you change it to? Or would you keep you original name?

A: In my first blog I did say that Ayla wasn’t my real name. I don’t like using my real name online for privacy reason because my name is unusual. BUT, I would love to change my name to Ayla. 

 9. Unlimited money or unlimited fame/friends?

A: Unlimited money, Greece here I come! 

 10. Cats or dogs?

A: I absolutely love both animals, but I do prefer dogs!

 11. What’s your ideal weather?

A: For summer, a nice hot sunny day with no clouds in the sky, and a cool breeze once in a while. For the winter, snow galore, an open fire and I’m snug in my hoodie. 
That’s it for the questions! 

Please check out @simplylife77 and go follow her account. She posts really good blogs and she’s super sweet! 

Check out the Sunshine Awards yourself and I’ll see you all soon! 

Until next time!

Britishgirlonline, Going Offline… xxx

Mothers Ruin EVERYTHING!

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Yes, I suck at keeping up on everything.

But let’s get into it, I have things to talk about!

I’m preforming a show! It’s called ‘Seussical The Musical’ pretty cheesy, but hey, Dr Seuss was pretty good at his story writing skills. I have auditions in a few weeks, and I have no idea what to sing. I’m thinking of singing something from ‘Dear Evan Hansen’. Honestly, I adore that musical, it’s so entertaining. Anyway, I have singing and acting auditions, SO, I have a lot to prepare for.

It’s now the summer holidays, so 6 weeks of nothing to do. I was going to go to SITC, but guess what, my mother is stubborn as hell. We got into an argument, over something little and she flipped out.

I hadn’t changed one of the pets water in 2 days and one of those days, I was at a sleepover (nothing exciting). So she screams at me and tells me:

“YOU’RE NOT GOING TO SUMMER IN THE CITY, I DON’T CARE. YOU’RE LAZY, AN EMBARRASSMENT AND A DISAPPOINTMENT.”

So, she told me I can’t go. I’ve never felt so stupid, upset and angry in my life. I went to my room, cried myself to sleep and I’m going to never speak to my mum again, unless I have too. I know I’m a disappointment, you don’t have to tell me twice. About 2 years ago when Dan and Phil were preforming in my city, I asked my mum if she could get the tickets, she said yes and guess what!? SHE FORGOT TO BUY THE BLOODY TICKETS. So, I was counting on SITC to finally be the year I could meet my idols, cause YouTube is the only thing that makes me happy anymore. But no, my so called mother has crushed up and ruined everything just because she hates me, great.

I do get angry easily, I have shouted and flipped out before. I get why she dislikes me, she tells me I’m rude, mean and that I ruin everything. I’m a teenager, hormones are not fun to deal with, so what does she expect? Yes, a happy teenager, with no problems, no anger, no sadness, no anxiety, no sarcasm, NOTHING. No, I’m a teenager who has, problems, anger issues I need to work on, sadness that overflows my brain, anxiety and a crap ton of sarcasm I use, too often.

I am incredibly sorry for things I have done, I do regret it and say I’m sorry. I tell her what does make me angry and hurts me but she just makes me angry anyway. I swear it’s on purpose.

Honestly, I can’t stand the women. I went to a pride prom thing on Friday and she told me I looked underdressed and said she’ll get something out of her wardrobe, I said no it’s fine, BUT SHE GOES AHEAD AND DOES IT ANYWAY. She pulls out skirts and dresses, which I hate and when I say I hate it and I get annoyed cause she went ahead and did it, she says I’m being rude, and that she’s only trying to help when I didn’t want or need the help. Then out of the blue she says:

“You’ll regret it when I’m dead”

Like, that has nothing to do with clothes. So I argue back with, that it has nothing to do with it and so on.

In the end, I stayed with what I had on, and I wasn’t even underdressed when I got there. See, sometimes teenagers are actually right.

That’s it for now, I’ll try to convince her, probably won’t work, but it never hurt to try.

Bye friends! 🖤

– BritishGirlOnline, Going Offline xxx

I Did It! (Finally)

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GUYS, GUYS, GUYS!!!

Guess what I did..

But before I get into this, happy 4th of July America!

BUT, back to the point, you’re not even ready for this..

I FINALLY TALKED TOO MG!!!!!

*insert happy me dancing furiously*

OKAY, I’ll talk you through it all!

SO! Today (On the 4th of July. Conspiracy? I think NOT) at lunch, my friend R and my other friend D, decides to take me up to MG and his friends to ask him to talk to me privately. ONLY IT HAD GONE WRONG! My friends chickened out and decided to ask one of the boys in MG’S friendship group and ask MG to come up to me, except they twisted the story, to say that I like, like, him. (Fancy him basically, for all my fellow British peeps.) So, he thought it was a joke and said no to talking to me and that actually stung. So, I went to my 5th lesson as usual. I finished the day, and started to walk alone with MG in front of me going out the school gates.

As we both crossed the road, I finally decided to say something, in those 5 seconds, I had made a life changing decision, (Sort of I guess…FOR ME ANYWAY). I tapped him on the shoulder and this is when the conversation happened: *cue smiling me*

ALSO I WAS SHIVERING LIKE MAD.

Me: Hey uh MG, sorry about my friends at lunch, they’re a bit awkward.

MG: It’s fine.

Me: Uh could I talk to you for a minute?

MG: Sure.

Me: Well, I don’t know if you remember me personally.

MG: I do. *smiles*

Me: Really?!

MG: Yeah.

Me: Wow uh, I know about the things that have happened, obviously, and I still talk to one of your Nan’s. You know the one who works at (I CAN’T SAY).

MG: Yeah!

Me: Well uh anyway, I didn’t know if you wanted to carry on with our friendship or..

MG: I don’t know *shrugs*.

Me: Oh..Okay.. *Stops talking cause I was very shaky and sad*

MG: Uh……bye.

Me: Bye…

AND THAT’S IT! I know, I could’ve been a bit more forward but anxiety was literally stopping me from saying a lot. I think it went well, I hope. But my anxiety has been a pile of squiggles lately, so my emotions have been sad and angry, damn you hormones! But all I can say is, keep your head high, and hope Shrek will make things better.

Also since I’m aggressive and angry, I might be joining a rugby and kickboxing group, I like fighting and pushing people over, (I don’t do this on a daily basis, don’t worry). Let’s pray I am able to get into a team!

Have you guys ever been in a situation like this? Leave your stories below!

Until next time!

BritishGirlOnline, Gone Offline xxx