The Sunshine Blogger Awards! 

Hey guys! 

So, I’ve been nominated for ‘The Sunshine Blogger Awards!’. I’m so excited to be in on all of this! 

I’d like to thank @simplylife77 or ‘Anna’ for nominating me for the award. I very much appreciate it all, and absolutely am thrilled with the news. 

I wasn’t too sure about where to put the questions and answers so I’ll be putting the questions in the post. 

I’m not going to be nominating anyone since I haven’t known that many people on here, so sorry beans! 

But here we go! 

 1. What’s your current obsession(s)?
A: Probably YouTube, Blink-182 and comfy hooodies.

 2. What’s something you really regret from your past? 

A: Being an absolute b**** to my mum, and not standing up for myself.

 3. If you were any food, what food would you be? (idk anymore. that was extrememly random😂😂😂)

A: Probably a mango, not sure why.

 4. If you could choose your age forever, what age would you choose and why?

A: I feel like 16 or 20 would be the best ages.

 5. Would you rather travel a century into the future or a century into the past? Why?

A: Probably into the future, too see how society has destroyed the world, and then I can see what not to do in time.

 6. What’s your favorite flavor of icecream?

A: Ben and Jerry’s cookie dough! ^-^

 7. What’s one of your biggest pet peeves?

A: People trying to squeeze their way into my friend group.

 8. If you changed your name, what would you change it to? Or would you keep you original name?

A: In my first blog I did say that Ayla wasn’t my real name. I don’t like using my real name online for privacy reason because my name is unusual. BUT, I would love to change my name to Ayla. 

 9. Unlimited money or unlimited fame/friends?

A: Unlimited money, Greece here I come! 

 10. Cats or dogs?

A: I absolutely love both animals, but I do prefer dogs!

 11. What’s your ideal weather?

A: For summer, a nice hot sunny day with no clouds in the sky, and a cool breeze once in a while. For the winter, snow galore, an open fire and I’m snug in my hoodie. 
That’s it for the questions! 

Please check out @simplylife77 and go follow her account. She posts really good blogs and she’s super sweet! 

Check out the Sunshine Awards yourself and I’ll see you all soon! 

Until next time!

Britishgirlonline, Going Offline… xxx

Mothers Ruin EVERYTHING!

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Yes, I suck at keeping up on everything.

But let’s get into it, I have things to talk about!

I’m preforming a show! It’s called ‘Seussical The Musical’ pretty cheesy, but hey, Dr Seuss was pretty good at his story writing skills. I have auditions in a few weeks, and I have no idea what to sing. I’m thinking of singing something from ‘Dear Evan Hansen’. Honestly, I adore that musical, it’s so entertaining. Anyway, I have singing and acting auditions, SO, I have a lot to prepare for.

It’s now the summer holidays, so 6 weeks of nothing to do. I was going to go to SITC, but guess what, my mother is stubborn as hell. We got into an argument, over something little and she flipped out.

I hadn’t changed one of the pets water in 2 days and one of those days, I was at a sleepover (nothing exciting). So she screams at me and tells me:

“YOU’RE NOT GOING TO SUMMER IN THE CITY, I DON’T CARE. YOU’RE LAZY, AN EMBARRASSMENT AND A DISAPPOINTMENT.”

So, she told me I can’t go. I’ve never felt so stupid, upset and angry in my life. I went to my room, cried myself to sleep and I’m going to never speak to my mum again, unless I have too. I know I’m a disappointment, you don’t have to tell me twice. About 2 years ago when Dan and Phil were preforming in my city, I asked my mum if she could get the tickets, she said yes and guess what!? SHE FORGOT TO BUY THE BLOODY TICKETS. So, I was counting on SITC to finally be the year I could meet my idols, cause YouTube is the only thing that makes me happy anymore. But no, my so called mother has crushed up and ruined everything just because she hates me, great.

I do get angry easily, I have shouted and flipped out before. I get why she dislikes me, she tells me I’m rude, mean and that I ruin everything. I’m a teenager, hormones are not fun to deal with, so what does she expect? Yes, a happy teenager, with no problems, no anger, no sadness, no anxiety, no sarcasm, NOTHING. No, I’m a teenager who has, problems, anger issues I need to work on, sadness that overflows my brain, anxiety and a crap ton of sarcasm I use, too often.

I am incredibly sorry for things I have done, I do regret it and say I’m sorry. I tell her what does make me angry and hurts me but she just makes me angry anyway. I swear it’s on purpose.

Honestly, I can’t stand the women. I went to a pride prom thing on Friday and she told me I looked underdressed and said she’ll get something out of her wardrobe, I said no it’s fine, BUT SHE GOES AHEAD AND DOES IT ANYWAY. She pulls out skirts and dresses, which I hate and when I say I hate it and I get annoyed cause she went ahead and did it, she says I’m being rude, and that she’s only trying to help when I didn’t want or need the help. Then out of the blue she says:

“You’ll regret it when I’m dead”

Like, that has nothing to do with clothes. So I argue back with, that it has nothing to do with it and so on.

In the end, I stayed with what I had on, and I wasn’t even underdressed when I got there. See, sometimes teenagers are actually right.

That’s it for now, I’ll try to convince her, probably won’t work, but it never hurt to try.

Bye friends! 🖤

– BritishGirlOnline, Going Offline xxx

I Did It! (Finally)

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GUYS, GUYS, GUYS!!!

Guess what I did..

But before I get into this, happy 4th of July America!

BUT, back to the point, you’re not even ready for this..

I FINALLY TALKED TOO MG!!!!!

*insert happy me dancing furiously*

OKAY, I’ll talk you through it all!

SO! Today (On the 4th of July. Conspiracy? I think NOT) at lunch, my friend R and my other friend D, decides to take me up to MG and his friends to ask him to talk to me privately. ONLY IT HAD GONE WRONG! My friends chickened out and decided to ask one of the boys in MG’S friendship group and ask MG to come up to me, except they twisted the story, to say that I like, like, him. (Fancy him basically, for all my fellow British peeps.) So, he thought it was a joke and said no to talking to me and that actually stung. So, I went to my 5th lesson as usual. I finished the day, and started to walk alone with MG in front of me going out the school gates.

As we both crossed the road, I finally decided to say something, in those 5 seconds, I had made a life changing decision, (Sort of I guess…FOR ME ANYWAY). I tapped him on the shoulder and this is when the conversation happened: *cue smiling me*

ALSO I WAS SHIVERING LIKE MAD.

Me: Hey uh MG, sorry about my friends at lunch, they’re a bit awkward.

MG: It’s fine.

Me: Uh could I talk to you for a minute?

MG: Sure.

Me: Well, I don’t know if you remember me personally.

MG: I do. *smiles*

Me: Really?!

MG: Yeah.

Me: Wow uh, I know about the things that have happened, obviously, and I still talk to one of your Nan’s. You know the one who works at (I CAN’T SAY).

MG: Yeah!

Me: Well uh anyway, I didn’t know if you wanted to carry on with our friendship or..

MG: I don’t know *shrugs*.

Me: Oh..Okay.. *Stops talking cause I was very shaky and sad*

MG: Uh……bye.

Me: Bye…

AND THAT’S IT! I know, I could’ve been a bit more forward but anxiety was literally stopping me from saying a lot. I think it went well, I hope. But my anxiety has been a pile of squiggles lately, so my emotions have been sad and angry, damn you hormones! But all I can say is, keep your head high, and hope Shrek will make things better.

Also since I’m aggressive and angry, I might be joining a rugby and kickboxing group, I like fighting and pushing people over, (I don’t do this on a daily basis, don’t worry). Let’s pray I am able to get into a team!

Have you guys ever been in a situation like this? Leave your stories below!

Until next time!

BritishGirlOnline, Gone Offline xxx

Finally Talking To MG!

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Hello materinos!

That’s a weird starter, well! This week ahs been insane, again, it’s only Wednesday.(EDIT: OMFG GOD AYLA, AGAIN ITS LITERALLY THE NEXT WEEK, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!?) But before we get into anything, there’s no news from MG! (Mystery Guy) sadly, I moved to a new maths class, BUT as I was walking with my friends, he walked past and we made eye contact. IT’S A SIGN. Hah, anyway let’s get to the real deal!

Now in England it’s been surprisingly hot since last Friday. That’s weird from England, since all it does is rain. On Saturday, I got sunburn for the first time in my life, which was weird, cause even as a child I never burnt, I only tanned, like when I was 1, I went to Greece and tanned, never burned, madness! I’ve been feeling like a walker honestly, but Escape The Night 2 is out, yas! That’s actually how I met my best friend, through ETN. But yeah, as I said in the edit part it’s the next week but there’s more news!

On Monday, my friend, let’s just call her R for now, she’s been helping me try talk to MG, but, when we were walking out of maths, she decides to say, “Hi MG!”, and I could see him look at us and smile as he walks off, and it made my heart warm up. Also he walks past my bus stop where I get on the bus to go home, SO, I could go up too him while he walks, there’s a plan for ya! WHAT A GREAT IDEA. If I had any confidence and didn’t have panic attacks.

But honestly it’s been an okay week. I mean, beside an old man fell on the bus and I was too anxious to do anything. Also this guy I despise in school was throwing stuff at my friend so, I took action and threw a bottle with a small amount of water in at him, but managed to have a great shot and hit him in the face…Whoops! I managed to make his lip bleed but he did call me and my friend fat once and has always thrown stuff at me, so he honestly deserved it.

I’ll keep you updated if I say anything to MG, and I will try not to right these blogs at night so that I fall sleep, hah.

BritishGirlOnline, Gone Offline xx

Boy Problems!

Second Post!

So it’s been an eventful week, AND IT’S ONLY WEDNESDAY. (EDIT: Thursday now, couldn’t even finish a paragraph. YOU HAD ONE JOB AYLA!)tumblr_mztqbxhBYc1ql8z0bo4_400.gif

You know that one guy in the same class your in or you just see him roaming around school? Well, I have a bit of a crush on that kinda guy. Let’s just call him Mystery Guy for now. Now this is going to be a shocker BUT we used to be best friends, likes BEST friends. I won’t go into anything too deep but here’s the story line.

We met when we were 3-4, our mums became really close friends and we lived on the same street. We used to play and hang out EVERYDAY like I’m talking everyday. We had sleepovers, went to festivals/camping together, we were basically inseparable. Until about 5 years ago something tragic happened and he and his family moved to a different side of the city I lived in, (It’s not a huge city, but we never saw eachother again). Until about 4 months ago when I moved to a new school! Now I knew he went to this school from a friend of mine who remembered him, but I didn’t think we’d be in one of the same classes. So I sit in the next row behind him on the left side and he’s in the middle seat. So I’m close enough to admire him. But let’s get into the INTERESTING things! I’ll explain the things I’ve said to him.

Me: Hey N? Are any of those my book?

MG:No.

The Next Time:

Me: Hey N? Could you put the counters at the front please?

MG: Yeah, sure.

And another time we were in a different maths room since our maths room was in exams of Year 10s and 11s. So we went to a different room and I was in the front row and on the right side of the room and he was on the left side a few rows back, and all lesson we just kept glancing at eachother but said nothing. Another time we were in the computer room and there were two seats at the back next to eachother and I couldn’t find a closer one to my friend so I went to pick one of those chairs and he picked the chair beside me but he was with his friend so I just stood there wide eyed and we looked at eachother for a couple seconds and he went to another chair, I would’ve said they could have the chairs if my anxiety hadn’t taken over. We see eachother in the halls, because I’m clumsy and ALOT of people pusha and shove I ususally bump into him and say sorry about a million times. But hey, that’s just the butterflies right? But i’ll keep you updated! I’m also getting my hair done Saturday, I’m going back brown since my hair is unhealthy with all the blonde, meh whatever. Talk with you guys soon, bye!

BritishGirlOnline, till next time xx

Welcome!

Hi! I’m BritishGirlOnline and this is my blog, yes I know I managed to choose the same name as Zoe Sugg’s book, but honestly I had nothing else. Would you rather me be called APacketOfSkittles? I don’t think so. Anyway, I’m going to tell you a few facts ’bout me that you may want to know, if you’re reading this.

1. I don’t use my real name online, I usually go by a fake name, so I’ve decided that name will be: Ayla Defoy. Hopefully there’s no one called that but whatever. I don’t like my real name that much anyway.

2. My dream when I pass school is to become an actress or animal rescuer. From a young age I loved both those jobs, they were everything I loved, so hopefully I achieve them!

3. I spend my life on the internet, I watch YouTube, talk to internet friends, etc. I mean trying YouTube would be fun, I just don’t think I’m cut out for it, meh.

4. Memes are basically all of my feed. So I look at a lot of memes.

5. I support the LBGT+ community and I’m against racism, sexism and any kind of ism. I hate Donald Trum, you can probably tell.

6. My favourite bands and singers are Blink-182, My Chemical Romance, Twenty One Pilots, Scratch21, Melanie Martinez and Dodie Clark. I know, how original for a 13 year old.

7. I read ALOT of books. I’ve been reading a lot of books through this year and last year, it helps my sadness and anger, it takes me too a fantasy world that I adore.

8. I ADORE aesthetics, my style is more vintage and grungy, very confusing but I love it!

9. I will not be showing my face, please don’t search up my other social media cause that’s just not cool my dude.

10. Finally! I will be posting about my life events and life lessons that happen when I go through my week, ’cause my life is PRETTY eventful!

That’s it from me, speak to you soon people of the internet. Good day!

BritishGirlOnline, Gone For Now xxx

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